So it's pretty clear that I could not and did not want to smoke for the rest of my life. I got hooked as a teen and smoking has been my stress and boredom salvation ever since. I quit once before. It lasted almost a year, but I let a stressful event get the best of me.
Now I'm back and newly motivated. I have two beautiful boys who love their mommy and need her around. I dread the thought of my babies growing up and becoming smokers like mom. A little extra motivation has been my charming 5 year old's sincere concern for my health. It breaks my heart to hear my tiny man say "ma please don't smoke! What if you only have one lung hole left and you ruined all your lungs?!" How can I let that continue. I can't.
It is only day two and I already have considered breaking something to alleviate some stress. My poor kids have been victims of mommy on edge, too. Although I did explain to my 5 year old that quitting smoking makes people crabby sometimes, they still don't need to witness the smokeless-monster I have become.
I have been using nicotine replacement products, and stress relieving techniques along with exercise. It all helps, but no matter what I do, quitting smoking sucks.
In the long run, it will be worth it. I will feel better, age better, smell better, be setting a better example for my kids, and hopefully live better. I have to continuously remind myself all this as I consciously "miss" all of my regular cigarette breaks and explode at innocent bystanders.
There are NO benefits from smoking. Any enjoyment or relief attained from smoking can be achieved by other, healthier means. It's never too late to quit. Start quitting today.
I'm a quitter! A proud quitter.
Quit smoking.
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